Yeah, yeah, I know...my last post was all about how much I was looking forward to sleeping. Tonight I'm wide awake. And it isn't because of the blood-pumping cardio session I just finished. Its because of the awakening I experienced in church today. Such an amazing day. I had an 'ah ha' moment in the middle of worship this morning...and God just continued to show himself to me over the course of the day. We're having an 'awakening' at church this week. Keeping with that theme, my bro-in-law led us in an amazing, powerful song -- Chris Tomlin's 'Awakening'. It was during that song that I felt God was speaking to me, showing me exactly what he's been up to in my life over the last few years. He's been awakening my soul. For most of my life I didn't bare my soul to anyone...including myself! No one, including me, knew the true me...except Him, my amazing God! The one and only God! But he's been hard at work on me. And looking back over the last few years, its perfectly clear that he was bringing me back to him...awakening my soul so that I can show others his love! I remember in January of 2008 sitting in the parking lot of my doctors office by myself, crying because I thought I was never going to be able to have a baby. Those of you closest to me know that I haven't always been this fitness fanatic. This journey actually started because I was obese and not ovulating. It was that day, in that parking lot, that it struck me...in order to glorify God to the best of my ability (which I believe to include having children), I was going to have to take control of my life and lose the weight. It was then that I made the decision to do just that. Little did I know I wasn't the one taking control, He was. At the time I wasn't going to church. Honestly, I hadn't attended church on a regular basis since I'd moved to Jonesboro. Much of that was due to the fact that I didn't feel comfortable in my clothes and my weight issues created social anxiety in the company of people I didn't know. When the weight began to come off, I became more comfortable with myself and consequently Michael and I began going to church on a regular basis. Later that year we joined and were baptized. All the while God was giving me the strength to continue to shed the pounds that had been holding me captive. Since I've made the transformation from unhealthy to healthy, I have been given this avenue to help others while sharing my testimony and baring my soul. My journey has been powered by prayer...Its been helped along by the amazing individuals that God has placed in my life to motivate me and encourage me...And I could not be more blessed! A precious friend told me the other day (at the gym of all places) that I had a 'great spirit' and 'amazing aura'. What an amazing compliment and an even better feeling to know that His work is showing through me. God is great! And what is so cool is He's not finished with me yet!
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